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So Excited

We were told that the results would be available by October 30, 2007. My colleague called the school already, shes as excited as I am but was told its not yet available . Grrrrrrr … am anxious to know the result, if I pass or if I fail. Shit! It’d be so so embarassing if I fail … must mean am so so so so damn stupid. Where’d all the stuff from college? Stored somewhere? Wahehehe but am hoping the three of us … oh no make that 4 … would pass it’d be good to have a friendly face inside the classroom.

The Exam


Went to the school to take the entrance examination for Master in Education – Special Education Major in Mental Retardation, whew! that was long and so was the line of examinees. When I submitted my requirements, I was asked by the in charge to pay my examination fee at the accounting office. Being new to the school it seemed like a maze to me, had a hard time finding my way had to ask a couple of students where the accounting office is. When I finally reached the accounting office, it was close. Looked closely on the schedule posted and it says 1:00 PM to 3PM, looked at my phone and its 2:15PM, how come they’re close?

Then came Mr. Nice Guy to the rescue (ewww…) when he saw my dilemma, he came to my rescure (charot!!!) knocked on the window till a lady opened it and accepted my payment. He was cute (and edible) per wafa’s standards (w/c is by the way hard to reach) but he was loud and damn so chatty as if we’ve known each other since prep school. Duh! thanks for helping me but I certainly dont want you following me all the way back to the Grad. School’s office much more to the jeepney stop. Grrrr …. asked for my name told him its Celine, (was the first name that came to mind) and never bothered to ask for his.

Cute and all but all flesh and most likely no substance (accdg. to my standards that is), what irked me most was the fact that he’s so feeling close. Imagine walking me all the way through the jeepney stop. Halllllllllleeeeeerrrr. Anyways didnt say much so as not to appear an ingrate or rude but heck I was boiling inside. Nyways that was yesterday, today or shall I say earlier, I met Myka and Julius (was so thankful for this) inside the school on the way to the testing center. If I havent met them I would have been lost in the maze, the three of us sat on the same row.

I find them amusing, cutest couple I’ve met on the floor, just find it amazing that they share so much in common that they ended up going to school together and taking the same course together. Whew! when their undergrad courses were way too different. The exam came as a shock, had to dig the archives of my brain for nouns, adjective and adverbs. Heck! that was so so so many years ago … what a drain. ‘Twas then I realized that I’m dumber than I was a year ago. It was a 3 type examination, the first was all about IQ I think good for 40 minutes, second was about language and reading comprehension, had to rock my brain for connectors (now that on earth are connectors?), then the last was I dunno how it was called but most likely spot the difference.

I’d say ’twas hard dunno with Myka and Julius but it was for me, after a year of never reading about nouns, connectors, adverbs, subject verb agreement and who knows what else.

TJ was there with his gf, another cute couple, taking the same course together. Chatted a bit after the exams and if we’re lucky enough to pass, all three of us (moi, Myka and TJ) would be classmates this coming semester.


A New Direction

Its 6:08 AM; will have my entrance exam at 7:30 AM. A bit nervous but excited the thought of a new focus somehow gave me new hope. A friend said how come you don’t have a direction when you’re working, guess she never understood after all the things that am going through. Made me reevaluate the friendship I shared with her, bad as it may seem but the moment she said that it made me see her as someone shallow.

Gave up hope of taking a programming course, maybe that one isn’t just for me. I’ve known all along that being practical is what’s gonna allow me to survive this dreary reality but being the stubborn person that I am, at a point I cling to the vain hope that my passion would see me through. Well guess not, I don’t have plans of staying in the company for years. As of now, waking up has already been such a drag for me, I dread the thought of going to work and taking those call, saying the same spiel over and over seeing people I don’t really wanna see, the only reason am staying is coz of the pay (guess that much goes with everyone else) and coz of mom’s condition.

A colleague mentioned to me once that the last date of examination is this week, made up my mind to give it a shot. Otherwise I’ll be stuck and would waste another 6 months. I’ve wasted enough already and its high time to change that. Mom said you’ve missed so many opportunities already coz of me, don’t want to be the reason why none of your plans would push through. I assured her she’s not and that everything I did and will do is a matter of choice.

Lets see what have I missed, China last Feb., Palau last May, Maldives last June, and Hong Kong s’posedly this month. But that’s bound to change now, way back then mom’s condition discouraged me from working any further on my papers, her encouragement now made me reconsider my other options. Don’t want to have another missed opportunity,  all along I’ve known there’s nothing in the company for me. My very first team lead asked me to apply for trainer even when I was not a regular yet and way before I got my license, told him will do when I passed the board exams, after I passed the board and was a regular employee, he prompted me again. Told him will do when I have a tenure of one year. I guess he knew all along that I was never interested, he stopped then and there but every now and then would keep on telling me that my license was a waste.

Its not, don’t believe in that crap. Its part of who I am and its something I take with me wherever I go, my fallback I should say when all else fails. 

Would enroll in Masters of Education – Special Ed. major in Mental Retardation; something I should have done way back when TJ told me bout it. We could’ve been classmates for all I know not that it matters but I envy him he’s probably almost done, oh well no room for regrets here.

This was something Wafa and I planned months ago but being the fickle-minded gals that we are it became another “archived” plan. But now its not at least for me, being the almost married gal that she is, her focus and her priorities has changed. Cant blame her and seeing that she’s happy is all that matters for me.

Now I gotta end this ranting or rambling or whatever … otherwise I’d be late for my exam. Wonder if I’ll pass don’t have a clue on what the exam would be like…. heheheh

Goodluck to me!!!!