My Restless Feet

Saturday shift, I find myself sitting in the coldest station imaginable … even Creepy one complained that its too cold. During his first break I asked him to smuggle sandwich inside, I was terribly hungry last I’ve eaten was Friday morning I think, burger and fries. So when he came back I gobbled the food like there’s no tomorrow heheheh … what followed after was indescribable pain and the strong feeling of throwing up.

Unable to contain it any longer, went on unsched break informed a team lead I’ll be going to the clinic and head straight to the restroom, where I puked everything out. What I just ate and tons and tons of liquid, but that didn’t stop the pain and was so exhausted with all the puking I sat on the restroom floor and wished for the floor to just open up and consume me. Wiped my mouth and mustered the courage to go down to the clinic where the freakin nurse asked me if am pregnant after telling her my predicament. Grrr…told her that’s impossible coz we practice safe sex … hated her ever since she slept while talking to me sometime ago … wished for the Gates of Hades to just consume her.

Anyways she gave me tablets am skeptical to take knowing she’s careless at times. Went back to the floor as if nothing happened. Was over break for 15 minutes but no one seemed to notice which was exactly what I hoped for. This is not the first I’ve been throwing up whatever I ate in the past few months though they occur at random and not every time I eat, only two to three times a week but they were never accompanied by stomach pains.

Never thought of myself as bulimic till now … I don’t indulge in binge-eating, heck I hardly eat at all … and when I do eat I never felt guilty bout it. But the puking is one characteristic of bulimia and not only mom but other people from work, our nosy neighbors noticed my sudden lose of weight. I don’t force myself to throw up, it just comes, a couple of minutes after eating. Not every time I eat but twice or thrice a week, haven’t given it much thought till Saturday … the pain was scary.

We’ll see … would count the instances I’d threw up this week. Wafa is getting bigger while am getting thinner … truly, opposite attracts.