Its my lunch and I’m in the pantry using the “public” pc and not eating coz the food sucks, I’d rather not eat than get a stomachache. When I get back on the floor there’s gonna be VGH again, though its gonna mean small pay for me on the coming 15th its actually something I’m looking forward to.

I’m not happy with the job anymore, am tired of it, who doesn’t after almost a year of saying the same spiel over and over. Plus the team that I’ve been with ever since I started production has dispersed and now am with a new one w/c has a totally different sched from me so am never around for the “team meeting”, I dont know who my team mates are and what they look like. Kinda childish but hell you (and I do mean you, whoever you are) certainly can’t blame me as this is my FIRST job and that was my FIRST team. So you see what I mean? Oh crap! Am getting sentimental.

Moving on though its not an issue with the new team coz as a matter of fact I do like them, just found out my tl is actually a warm person opposite from what I first thought. Its really an issue with ME (yeah..yeah…I know am pretty stupid at times) how’d we say it on the floor? an issue with the agent? whatever…I guess its just that things are happening way too fast for me to like cope up..added to the fact that I dont have anyone else to talk to (we’ll I do but then he’s literally on the other side of the planet) about what’s eating me.

Whats eating me? First is, just recently my whole world turned upside down with my mom’s condition, I still have not recovered from the shock. Second, the team that I’ve grown to love is already “gone” and worst one of the trio is moving to the other side of the floor. Like I dont get to see her, talk to her every working day. Am happy that she got what she applied for (COMM Coach) am just sad that its gonna be for the other account. So I may not even see her on the floor and Mik has gone Pro Q (he deserves it, he’s aiming for tl position) so its just me left taking calls on what used to be “our area”.

These guys have a sort of direction with their career and am just …dont care for mine… nyahahaha … I don’t find fulfillment in almost everything I do and I have no idea why, the only reason am staying here is because of the pay (has to do with money hehehe). Let me rephrase that, thats not really everything…I do like the job (oh am such a fickle!) I do in a sense that I really wanna help out, if its something that I can pull up on my end I’d offer it even if it means sacrificing my AHT. I’ve gone through it so many times I can no longer count the instances and the issues wherein I proudly tagged the contact summary as Resolved. To add to that I havent got a bottom box on my survey results yet (am praying I wont ever) it has always been an 8 and a 9 hehehe something I’m so proud of. Though they say its a matter of luck but I think luck wont occur if you dont push the right button for it. Could no longer remember the number of surveys I got and on my previous tl’s appraisal he did comment that I do have a good number on QOS…hehehhehe though I suck at AHT and I fail QA at times as I forgot to say “would there be anything else?” before I do the transfer…(freaking trivialites for me really) but who am I to complaing? am just an agent…

I’m gonna end my rantings here…hehehe I need to eat (for the sake of eating) coz as lil gurl put it am losing weight…and as A used to say my eyes look just so tired. (Its not just the eyes, its the soul thats tired)